We had the most beautiful weather today: 69 degrees and sunny. It was so warm, I was able to wear a tank top and keep all the doors and windows open. Lulu was in love. She laid on the front porch and in the back yard intermittently, soaking in the rays of the sun. I played with her for a little bit, but mostly cleaned. I kept meaning to take her to the park and even talked about doing that with Josh when he got home from his CPAT orientation, but the unusual warmth got the spring cleaning bug into me and I just couldn't stop doing things around the house! Before I knew it, it was time for her dinner.
Around 6, Josh got a phone call with horrible, horrible news. His friend Gabe was involved in some type of random attack. No one is yet really clear what happened, but what is clear are the results. He is in the hospital in an induced coma because his brain is swollen. His whole face is shattered--his forehead, his nose, his jaw... I don't know the details of the rest of his body, but this alone sent me into huge gasping tears. Gabe is such an important figure in my life with Josh. He was the first friend of Josh's that I met and the person we went out with most when we all lived in the same place. I have a great amount of love for him and our relationship has always been so happy and genuine. If Josh and I were to be married and have a wedding large enough, he would surely be our Best Man. That's what he means to Josh and thus how greatly this impacts him. I feel helpless being so far away, though I know distance has little to do with how I could help. If we went down to California, it would be pointless. Sitting by his bedside is reserved for his family. I am just so glad they are all there with him. It does make me wish we could be with all the people who love him like we do. I emailed K on FB to tell her about it, and it was nice to at least connect with someone who could understand how I'm feeling.
I am dreading going back to school tomorrow. I really wish we had another day at least. It will be difficult to get back into the swing of things. Especially after a day of so many tears. I'm exhausted.
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