unhealth

This past week has been pretty hard on me, health-wise. Ever since I was diagnosed with PCOS, I've been taking a lot of herbal remedies and vitamins to help with my liver function. My liver is not pushing out the testosterone in my body like most female's livers do, so I am not ovulating and my emotions are very unpredictable. I also lack a great deal of energy because I am not able to process Vitamin D correctly. Last week, I got my first period in months. This made me think I was getting better. Then, 4 days after it stopped, I started another period. Heavier and more painful than the first. I called the Naturopath describing the pain and we are now pretty certain I'm not having my period, I'm simply bleeding from an ovarian cyst slowly popping. There are moments when I think, "OMIGOD THE PAIN PLEASE JUST KNOCK ME OUT RIGHT NOW" and then, it goes away. But then I move or sit in a way that puts pressure on it and I want to scream. I'm looking at 2 more months (at least) of so many pills every morning, drinking a disgusting tincture in juice, and putting beta-carotene drops on my tongue. Additionally, I have to radically change my diet. This is the part that scares me more than anything. Because of this PCOS, I am exhibiting diabetic-type symptoms in regards to insulin, so I have to eat a low-glycemic diet. That isn't the scary part. The scary part is that I basically have to eat all day long and, it's going to sound weird but, I really hate eating. Some things are yummy and if I am hungry I will happily eat them. But eating isn't fun to me. I like to do it once, maybe twice a day. Other than that, it seems really tedious. With this diet, I'm supposed to eat six times a day--at least. I don't think I'm going to be very good at it. It sounds expensive and time consuming and... boring.

Although I've been in too much pain to be really active this week, I've managed to do some fun things on my first real week of vacation. On Tuesday, I met the girls at Post in Post Alley for drinks and I ended up singing Billie Jean with the band in front of the whole place. Yesterday, I met some friends for lunch at Zeek's and then I took Lulu to the beach. The weather was so glorious and the beauty of the ocean and mountains were breathtaking. I felt like I was in the Mediterranean. I am a lucky girl to live where I do! When I got home, I packed a picnic and met Nikki at the Zoo for the Patty Griffin/Emmylou Harris/Shawn Colvin show. Afterwards, we went to her house and had a fire pit fire in the backyard with her boyfriend and two of his friends. Josh and Lulu joined us just before midnight.

My favorite event of the week was getting an iPhone!!! I love it. It was Josh's birthday present to me. Josh has been an amazing boyfriend throughout all this crap with my health. I am very lucky to have his love and adoration. He's going to the fire station again tonight and I am bummed about that. I've been busy with friends for 2 nights in a row and I could really use some downtime with him tonight. I guess that will have to wait til tomorrow....